Sometimes you make bad choices.
Sometimes you make really bad choices.
I've been training since early this spring for a race in the Tushar Mountains. It starts at 10,000 feet and goes up to Delano Peak at 12,000 feet. My two running buddies signed up, too, and we've been doing a lot of long runs and as many high-elevation runs and hikes as we could.
Then I got sick.
It started with nausea and stomach issues. I lost 5 pounds in 5 days.
Then it morphed into a wicked head cold. I was coughing and congested and could barely breathe.
It all started a week and a half before the race. But I decided to run it anyway. I blame the dehydration and lack of oxygen for this poor, poor decision.
My friends bailed, so Cole agreed to be my support crew. We drove down to Beaver Friday night, stayed in a sketchy hotel, ate pasta to carb-load me to meet my death, then got up early and headed up the canyon to the starting line.
I was still coughing and feeling pretty crappy, so of course heading up where there's no oxygen was just brilliant.
This is about mile 5, I think. Cole cheered me on at the start line, then drove up to the aid station to cheer me on again. Or maybe to make sure I wasn't dead yet? Either way, it was really nice to have a cheering section.
Then I hit the start of the peak. I kept hiking and hiking and hiking, but every time I'd look up the top was not any closer.
I packed a tiny little oxygen tank, so I kept sucking that down, but I had no energy, couldn't catch my breath, and felt like death.
My only comfort was that at least my pathetic carcass would rot and decompose in a beautiful place.
I finally - FINALLY - made it to the peak and foolishly thought to myself, "Hey! The worst of it is behind me!"
See those white dots in the picture below? They are mountain goats, mocking me.
Somehow after I ran back down the peak trail, the rest of the race was all uphill. Even though it had been all uphill the entire way to the peak.
I'm no geologist, but it doesn't seem right that it could be uphill both ways.
This is mile 10. I took this selfie assuming it would be the last picture ever taken of me. I was genuinely worried that this would be the first race I couldn't finish. It was so. damn. hard.
I finally finished the 14 uphill miles, complete with a gigantic hill right at the end, and crawled my way across the finish line. Never in my life have I NOT run across the finish line. But man, I could not muster the energy to even pretend to run at this point.
It was brutal and I was way slower than I'd hoped to be, but I finished. And I didn't even die. But it was close. Very, very close.